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My weekend, Gyaru Secrets and my thoughts.

First off I'd like to mention I did see the secret about me and I really don't mind. I lurk Gyaru secrets pretty much every week although to be honest I was a bit surprised having someone tell me about something being posted about me there considering I don't even classify or consider myself as Gyaru yet somehow I got posted. When it comes down to it my smile is really awkward, LOL. There's no denying it because I feel awkward when I don't smile in pictures but when I do smile in pictures it just looks really faked and odd.

But in all honesty, I don't mind things like this at all. Regardless if it takes needing to be anonymous to be brutally honest towards someone I think sometimes it's important to take and consider criticism and honesty as much as it is to get encouraged and complimented because without criticism how can you grow or get better at anything?

Not really directed at Gyaru Secrets but the topic of any kind of criticism in general.

As for my awesome weekend~

I went over on Saturday around 10pm to sleep over at Ashleys. We were planning on going to church early in the morning on Sunday but we both slept in from staying up too late! haha So we just went on the plans with her birthday for that day. We did go do tanning! haha It was so odd. When we were walking to the tanning salon @ Goodlife Fitness we had at least 5 or 6 honks from guys in cars. It was hilarious though, LOL. The tanning salon was cool though. I really should tan more often because I'm far too pale now so I think I might go ahead and get a membership. I'd just need to put the money I have on me in my bank because unfortunately they don't take cash. :< I'm thinking about getting a gym membership there too but that can wait until I get a decent paying job.

I'm thoroughly considering moving out. I need to work on getting a new job but I honestly think it would be good for me instead of being in a sense trapped in this negative environment I'm in now. When I'm stuck in this loop of negativity it really puts a strain on me. Living here itself is like a trigger for me because the moment I enter again it's like a new round of struggling has begun. I never realized until just recently how much I've been suffering over the past year. Now that I'm honestly really happy with everything in my life to a point that I feel so incredibly blessed to have had this opportunity of meeting these amazing people I realized how much my life was lacking before.

Now, I'm just really going with the flow of things. It's a refreshing feeling compared to how suffocated I've felt over the past year not only to have been going through so much but being completely alone for so long and having no one really to go to. It left me in such a pit of depression that I started holding out my hand to the wrong people who didn't have the best intentions for me nor care about me or my well-being. But when you're in such a pit of depression and have no one to turn to it's like you really want to cling to someone, anyone regardless if they're good or bad you just crave that feeling of not being alone. Unfortunately those who I found a brief bit of comfort being around took advantage and used me for ill-mannered intentions. I knew very well what was going on and what would happen so it's my own fault for allowing such things to happen. I've always been very aware of the kind of person someone is and what intentions they have just by the words and actions they use. But at the time even though I knew and realized it, I let it happen. I let it happen because there was a strange sense of comfort I had in temporarily being used.
But I'm just really glad. Now I have genuine, honest and sincere people around me. People who I honestly couldn't describe with words on how blessed I feel to have met. And so, I feel less inclined to keep those bad influences around. I'm really honestly happy.

Anyway, back on the topic!! After we got back from the tanning salon we came back to eat met up with a few other friend and headed over to the Irish pub. We didn't last long until we left but oh my god!! Instead we went to go to a pub that had pool tables and it was so much fun. I'm surprised I didn't even get ID'd seeing as I don't have proper photo ID, LOL. Shame getting drunk didn't make me play better! instead it screwed up the aim of a pro. HAHAHA Joking, I really sucked at pool. I haven't played it in so long though, ugguuuu, IT WAS SO FUN.

And then after we left we went over to Mc Donalds to eat and hang around until 3am and went back to Ashley's home and watched a movie.

This weekend could not have been better.

I'll probably update this post later with pictures! I didn't take many but I know Jrose did so I'll add them in when I can! I hope everyone had a great weekend like I did!

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4.30.2012 (30.4.12)

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Full Name : Chelsi Caroline Scott

Location : Toronto, Canada

Age : 19

Height : 5'2"

Weight : 90lbs.

Birth Date : 02 / 12 / 1993

Interests : Fashion, style, gore/horror, video games, makeup, modeling, art, literature & photography.

Hobbies : Cooking, watching dramas and movies, listening to a wide range of music, playing games, cosplaying, photography, testing makeup.

Ambition / Goals : To become a model, photographer, bartender or simply a job that involves animals, makeup, entertainment or food.

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Like (s) : Gyaru, Street fashion, Makeup, Wigs, Body Art, Fatal Frame, Legend of Zelda, Rilakkuma, Photography, Music, Dir en grey, DBSK/TVXQ, Misfits, Criminal Minds, The Walking Dead, Resident Evil fra Games, Zodiac signs, Horoscopes, Paranormal, Shopping, Food, J-rock, K-pop, Dramas, Cosplay, Art, Candy, Gore, Horror genre in general, Dressing up, Walking Dead,

Dislike (s) : Ignorance, Arrogance, Dishonesty & bullshit.

"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring." -Marilyn Monroe

FAQ

Do you have a Facebook?
Yes, click here.

What's the tattoo on your collar bone mean / say?

"Always keep the faith"
Quite self explanatory really. I believe one must have faith in order to keep going and moving forward in life. This tattoo was mainly a dedication towards one of my favorite bands (DBSK, TVXQ, Tohoshinki) but is also one with a close personal meaning. The stars are also the constellation of Cassiopeia.

What camera(s) do you use to take pictures?
Canon EOS Rebel T3i, Sony Cyber-shot DSC-W350, Microsoft LifeCam HD Webcam and occasionally I use my Nokia C3 just for mobile pictures.

What do you edit your photos with?
Mainly Photoshop CS5 & XiuXiu Photo Editor.

How can I lose weight/Do you have any tips?
Cut calories, stayed away from salt and any kind of soda, stopped eating late (I usually wait anywhere from 4-5 hours after a meal to sleep), Drank at least 5 bottles of water a day, started working out continuously, kept up with normal sleeping schedule, cut out any kind of instant foods especially that of instant noodles and started eating more lean meats (Mostly chicken & turkey) and veggies.

As for tips I could give so many...
If you ever feel hungry make sure you're actually hungry and not bored or want to eat because you're depressed.
If you get tempted to cheat put a rubber band tightly around your wrist to remind yourself. Brushing teeth or using mouth wash is what I do if I get tempted to cheat because whatever you eat after probably won't seem as good as it did before you brushed your teeth/use mouth wash. Another method to not overeat is to use smaller plates and don't pile food on.
If you do then eat slowly until you feel full and then find a way to ruin whatever is left of your food. I used to fill my plate up but when I finished sometimes I got lazy to put the food away and I would keep picking at it. So in order to avoid doing that anymore, the moment I get full I pour a bit of my drink over my food so I can completely cross it out of my mind.

What brand of makeup do you use?
There's no specific brand I stick to but if you would like a list of the makeup I use a lot I'll list them.

Hard Candy Sheer Envy Skin Perfecting Primer
Maybelline Dream Liquid Mousse Airbrush Finish in Light/Porcelain Ivory
CoverGirl skin powder in Buff Beige
Hard Candy All Over Highlighter in 135/the brown palette
Hard Candy Blush Crush Baked blush in 125 living doll
Maybelline Falsies mascara
Elf Waterproof Eyeliner pen
Dolly Wink eyeliner (I use any kind of eyeliner that goes on well though)

For eyeshadow I use a lot of Rimmel because they're always the best when it comes to pigmented colored eyeshadow. I also use a few no name palettes I got off Ebay for cheap which I use a lot.

For false eyeslashes I mainly use Dolly Wink, Diamond Lash and Quo lashes along side no brand lashes I find online for cheap.

And as for makeup brushes I use mainly Quo brushes but I also use some Elf ones especially the eyeshadow brushes.
Do you have any pictures without makeup/circle lenses?
Of course.
Why do you use wigs?
They're fun to wear and create looks with. Also useful considering I get bored with my own hair quite often but I can never decide what hair color to go for.
Where do you buy your wigs / What are good places to buy them?
Mainly Ebay is your best bet. Type in wig & whatever color/style you want in the search bar, search, then select "eBay Top-rated sellers" under the sellers part on the left part where the categories are just below that. Look for wigs that are $20 and up. I wouldn't spend over $50 on a wig depending on the wig since some sellers charge way too much when you can find the same quality for cheaper.
Personally, I like heat-resistant wigs that are made with Japanese Kanekalon fibers because it's easy to take care of seeing as there's little to no tangles and the tangles that you do get are much much easier to get out so keep a look out for wigs that are either heat-resistant or made with Kanekalon fibers.
Make sure you check the sellers feedback page just make sure they seem legit.

Some stores that I buy mine from are;
http://stores.ebay.com/jcpunk (I got my long blonde wig from them. It's an incredibly gorgeous and thick wig but around the roots of the wig it is a bit frizzy but it's not that noticeable and the quality of the wig was still great plus there's no shedding)
http://stores.ebay.com/hualinhk2009 (I got my long black wig from them. Extremely good quality, no frizzy bits or shedding and came really quickly.)
http://stores.ebay.com/wigfashion (I got my red wig from them. I was EXTREMELY disappointed at how shiny the wig was and when I tried to style it using a hair straighter it melted the fibers even though it said heat resistant on the page and I was using low heat. I ended up needing to cut a chunk out of the wig and personally it just looks really fake to me, especially in person. Personally, I don't recommend this store compared to other stores I've brought from.)
http://stores.ebay.com/cosplaywig (I've bought most of my wigs from here. My brown, black/blonde, blue, pink & older blonde wig that I no longer have are all brought from this seller. INCREDIBLE quality. With some of the more pastel colored wigs if you do buy them I recommenced using baby powder to lessen the shine to the wig a bit. The fibers are amazing and literally NEVER tangle and most realistic. I've never had a problem with this store besides that my blonde/black wig was quite frizzy where the black & blonde was put together. Other than that I highly recommeed buying from here seeing as you get what you paid for and not some cheap looking replica of the pictures they give you.)

There's a lot more stores such as
http://www.gothiclolitawigs.com/
http://mintymix.com/
http://lockshopwigs.com/
But I've never ordered from them before so it's your choice to take the risk. But I've heard they're pretty accurate and legit about the stuff they sell so I'm personally extremely interested in ordering from those shops next.
What contacts do you use?
The ones I use quite frequently are EOS Candy Blue, Geo Xtra Hearts in Grey, Geo Princess Mimi in Sesame Grey, & EOS WM-207 Max Nudy Pink.
How did you start modeling?
One day I got asked by a photographer if I'd be interested in doing a shoot. After that I honestly saw modeling in a different light seeing as I was never interested in it beforehand. I grew an interest in looking more into it and after that I made a ModelMayhem account and one thing led to another and I started having fun doing TFP shoots with photographers in my area.
Do you see yourself doing modeling as a career?
No. It's a fact that the career of modeling will only last for so long however, I'm just interested in it more as a hobby. I want to construct a unique portfolio that brings out some unique-ness and individuality in myself that perhaps in some ways will set me apart from other people who pursue modeling. Maybe I'd get interested in it for a career later on but it's not something I would do strictly for work and career. I just like doing it as a hobby.

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